Why not?

“Minimalism is a tool to help you achieve freedom. Freedom from fear, freedom from worry, freedom from overwhelm, freedom from guilt, freedom from depression, freedom from enslavement. Freedom. Real freedom.” – Minimalism: Live A Meaningful Life, pg 24

A friend asked me yesterday: “Think back to when you were 18 years old. What did you want to do? What are you doing now?” It took me a bit. This wasn’t that long ago but I still really had to think. Finally, I came up with an answer:

“At 18, I was in university battling mental illness. I started the year with a guy who cheated on me and blamed me. I ended the year with the love of my life. I got my first real job and was exploring what it was like to be free from restrictions.

I wanted to be a teacher more than anything.

I’m turning 24 on the 24th. I am a mother, a private tutor who runs her own business, and a kick-ass-confident woman. Mental illness is still there but I own that bitch.”

I am still learning about my freedoms, despite the restrictions I have put on myself. I am learning that letting it all go is okay. It will not ruin my life to get rid of the things I have always held onto. I am happy. I am so happy I don’t recognise myself anymore. I am so confident in myself, my appearance, my choices, and my life. I have never once been able to look at myself and say “I love who I am!” Until now.

This process is never-ending. Not just simply because of the amount of stuff I have. It is also because once I am clutter free, this journey becomes about helping others, helping my community, using my time freely to do better and be better.

I wish I could tell 18-year-old me so much.

You are going to love this man for the rest of your life.

You are going to go through hell. Don’t let this deter you.

Everything that happens from here on out will make you stronger.

Do not be afraid.

You are beautiful. It is okay to open up and love yourself.

Have fun sometimes, no one likes the bitter girl.

 

Going forward, I plan to use my time better. To do things that make me happier. Like my money, my time is also valuable. I shouldn’t waste it on things I don’t need. If I want to dye my hair red and get bangs – I’m going to do it. You do you people. Why live the only life we get miserably?

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